"LORD, what have YOU created me for?"

What is YOUR purpose for my life? I have been pondering these questions and praying this prayer since church on Sunday night...

Am I ready for HIS answer, am I ready to do HIS will?

Well, I know that I am ready to do HIS will...

If you were have asked me 30 years ago if I would be single when I was 45 years old my answer would have been "NO"!!! I always dreamed of being married with two or three children and being the perfect mother and wife but this was not HIS plan...

So now I am 45 years old and never been married and again I ask...LORD what is your purpose for my life? What have you created me for?

I am so blessed to have received the most incredible gift ever from HIM , HIS one and only son JESUS and if that was not enough I was blessed with Kahli Elizabeth Hubbard...and yes, LORD I am raising her to the best of my ability and yet I feel as though I am falling short of your glory and again I ask...What is YOUR purpose for my life?

LORD, I love you with all of my heart and soul and I want to do YOUR will and glorify YOU in all that I do but again I ask What have YOU crated me for?

These two questions have put me in a tailspin and I will continue to pray these until I hear from HIM...If it is HIS will for me to be single all of my life, then I will do it happily....If it is HIS will for me to find the man of my dreams, then I will be even happier. Until then , I will GLORIFY HIM each and every day and continue to be blessed as HE wakes me up each and every morning.

LORD, thank you for your love, your friendship, your honestly and your SON!

Saturday...Saturday

Today I spent the entire day cleaning my house. As some of you know I have been cleaning others people's houses and since I started doing that my house has been left out of the loop. Anyway, it feels good to be sitting in a clean house.

I am missing Kahli tonight. We usually spend Saturday nights together and it is very quiet with her gone. I know that she is doing great things in San Diego.

My Grandma is here for the week staying with my mom and dad so I have been visiting over there in between cleaning today. It is nice to have her here and tomorrow just the girls...me, Grandma and Mom are going to church then out to lunch. My dad had some oral surgery on Thursday and he still is not feeling up to going to church.

Tomorrow night, I am going to "New Spring" with my friend Jessica. Kahli and I usually go there on Sunday nights and I did not want to go alone so Jessica is going with me. I am excited for our time together worshipping our heavenly FATHER.

Well I must get in the shower and do a quick pedicure so that my toes are beautiful for Sunday.

May all who are reading this enjoy your day of worship tomorrow with your family.

in HIS grace...

building sandcastles

Kahli sent me this picture today of Faith and Isaac building a sandcastle. They are so happy that she is there with them and I know how happy she is also.

I talked with Michelle tonight and told me that she has missed Kahli so much that she might not send her back to South Carolina. She might keep her on the west coast.

Two weeks from tomorrow I will be leaving to go to California. I am so excited to go and see my "west coast family" that I have missed horribly.

Oh yeah and by the way, I will be bringing Kahli home with me.

LONELY ALREADY!

Kahli has not even left yet and I am getting lonely already. It is hard to believe that in all of her years we have never been apart for more than a few days at a time.

You see when Kahli was growing up she never went to camp for the summer or to grandma's house for the summer (well she did but i picked her up every night). We have always spent our summers/vacations together.

I am excited for her to have this opportunity to go to San Diego with out me for a while. There are so many things that she can do. I am hoping that Jimmy will let her some "mission work" while she is there. I know that Michelle will be happy to have her help with the laundry and watching the kids. I also know that Kahli will be happy to help everyone as long as she gets to dance a couple of time a week.

During these next couple of weeks I am going to keep myself busy with extra "side jobs" and helping my mom with my dad (who is having oral surgery 6-26) and with my 90 year old grandma who is coming for the week.

I am going to get a small taste of what it will be like when Kahli goes off to college.

These next couple of weeks will be "bittersweet" for Mom.

Kahli is going to CALI

In exactly one week Kahli will be going out to California to visit "The Husters". She is so very excited. Faith and Isaac are the little brother and sister she never had. They spent so much time together while growing up and they miss each other horribly.

This will be the longest time that Kahli and I have ever been away from each other but I am confident that she will be well taken care of. She is going to be with my sister, my best friend and the person I miss the most in life, Michelle.

Michelle and Jimmy have adopted Kahli as their third child. They are also excited for Kahli to come and spend some time with them this summer. I know that this family will love and nurture Kahli and teach her more about the gospel because they live the gospel each and every day.

If you would like to follow Kahli's adventure to California, she has started a blog to document everything she is doing. Kahliscaliblog.blogspot.com

"Missing the Husters"

It has been almost a year since the Huster's moved to the west coast...I am thankful and I have been blessed to visit numerous times and to have them come here also....However, it has been since Christmas since I have laid eyes on all of their faces...


I can not tell you how much I miss Faith and Isaac's hugs and kisses and how much I miss their excitement to see their Nana and to spend time with me....I miss all of our car rides together and all of our trips to and from church and all of the times we got lost and went in circles but we always had fun.....The green tape that we listened to endlessly....I miss the things so very much....
I miss Michelle's beaming face and incredible smile...I miss her beautiful singing voice and her wonderful words of wisdom....We are truly sisters of the heart and still we she is so far away I can feel her pain.....I can not wait until July 11 when I can be there in San Diego with my other family.....
I miss Jimmy so very much....I miss watching football and basketball games with him on TV....I miss our Sunday afternoon dinners....I miss our long talks and wonderful prayer time we had together....I miss his smile and I miss his energy and his joyful nature always being around....


I miss my Sunday afternoon naps with Isaac and us snuggling together and I miss her cheerful smile and I miss hearing him talk and I miss picking him up from school and I miss so many things.....I REALLY MISS "THE HUSTERS"...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE GREG!!!!!

Happy Birthday Uncle Greg!

Today I received an e-mail from Faith asking me if I had called Ugl Greg yet to sing him Happy Birthday. I got a kick out of this for two reasons. The first being the spelling of Ugl Greg and the second being that my singing skills are so bad but Faith loves my birthday song that Kahli and I sing together. Okay, so my biggest fan is "7" but I am very proud that I have any fans at all.

Uncle Greg has been a big part of our lives for many years. He has been Kahli's pediatrician. He has been my sushi partner. He has been a great friend to us both. We share a lot of laughs together. We have also shared some tears together. We have both grown as Christians. He has amazing knowledge of the Bible. Do not ever try to beat him in scrabble, it is a tough battle. He has always taken Kahli "back to school" shopping. (and yes that is because he loves it as mush as she does).

Uncle Greg has moved to San Diego to be a part of Jim and Michelle's launch team for their church plant in Ocean Beach, California.Kahli and I miss Uncle Greg and hopefully he misses us too. I know that he has had an impact on our lives.

I am sure that the people of San Diego will also feel his impact on their lives . He is an awesome doctor that puts his entire being into making the children that he treats feel at ease as he helps to make them better. He ministers to the nurses and others around him while at work and I know that he is bringing more people to Christ.

Happy June 1 Uncle Greg and Happy Birthday.....39 gets better every year!!!