"heard the gospel today"

today is sunday....one of my favorite days ot the week and today was no exception....today i had the honor and pleasure of going to covenant church to hear jimmy preach.....even though he did not have a voice this morning, the gospel was heard loud and clear....one of those messages that leave you thinking and praying and pondering thoughts all day long...

then tonight, i went to newspring and listened to clayton king give a message and heard more of the gospel preached loud and clear....and still i walk away thinking, praying and pondering thoughts...

on my way home as i was driving i heard a song that kind of sums up my day...

BE STILL, MY SOUL

be still, my soul: the LORD is on your side.

bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;

leave to your GOD to order and provdie;

in every change GOD faithful will remain.

be still, my soul: your best, your heavenly friend

through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

be still, my soul: your GOD will undertake

to guide the future, as in ages past.

your hope, your cofidence let nothing shake;

all now mysterious shall be bright at last.

be still, my soul: the waves and wind still know

the CHRIST who ruled them while HE dwelt below.

be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on

when we shall be forever with the LORD,

when disappointment, grief and fear are gone,

sorrow for forgot, love's purest joys restored.

be still, my soul: when change and tears are past,

all safe and blessed we shall meet at last.

yes, the LORD is with me always and forever...whatever i am going through HE is right beside of me. ..HE is in charge...HE will provide. HE knows the order of my steps each day...may HIS will be done...BE STILL and know that HE is GOD!!!!

overwhelmed and melancholy

overwhelmed and melancholy...

WHY...

my heart is full with the love of JESUS...

HE continues to amaze me each and every day the way HE loves me..unconditionally...

i have an absolutely incredible daughter...

i a member of newspring church where i am surrounded by fellow believers...

i have a great job...

each day i am allowing myself to grow in CHRIST as i surrender my past...

GOD has all the money in the world...

i have indoor plumbing...

my car is paid for...

i am a great listener...

i make really good stewed apples...

a rooster wakes me up every morning...

kahli loves JESUS and is growing and maturing in HIM every day...

i give good pedicures...

i have a "free" gym membership...

GOD will never leave me or forsake me...

i can read my bible anytime and anywhere without hiding my love for the LORD...

i have more than one bible...

i get to minister to toddlers every sunday at church while their parents go to worship...

there are so many more things that i can be thankful for...

there is HOPE and i can find it...

GOD rocked my world today...

Well, today was going to be just another day.

If you read my previous blog, my state of mind was "pensive". There has been so many things going on in and around my life lately that I have been consumed with them, or should I say that they have consumed me.

These past couple of weeks I have been praying long and hard for some answers from the LORD. I have been asking questions to things I thought HE would never answer.

Truthfully, I have been concerned about "me" and not anything or anybody else. Yes, just self-consumed. This is not something that I am proud of it is something that just happened.

Anyway, without saying too much, I will share how " GOD rocked my world" today.

I have had this person in my life that I have not been able to warm up to and it has really been bugging me horribly. I am the kind of person who gets along with just about everyone. I can find good things in unlovable people. It has never been an issue for me to "gee-ha" with anyone.

So yeah, well today through a conversation, that was totally unexpected (that is kinda how HE works) I found out something this person and i had in common. Through the commonality that was revealed, my whole entire heart was changed. I know where that person is , what is going on in their heart and how they feel.

You see, the LORD used a time in my life in which I was "in a very low place". During this time HE was developing character within me. With the knowledge I have been given through this experience, I am now able to use it to reveal HIS glory. That just blows my mind.

I just finished a book entitled "In a Pit with a Lion on a Snowy Day". One of the lines in this book read: "It's our past problems that prepare us for our future opportunities". So okay, what does that really mean? HE showed me today what it means. HE has lit a fire within me today that had been "snuffed out" for a while.

This all may seem a little confusing to you, but what is comes down to is, the LORD is so absolutely awesome! I have been so self-consumed and selfish over the past couple of weeks and HE showed me a couple of things today:

#1....it is NOT all about me but about HIM (which I have always known but sometimes life gets in the way and we forget)

#2...HE can use horrible events and turn them into HIS glory

#3...we never know what someone else is going through just by looking and not loving.

#4...that I have the honor and privilege of knowing, loving and being loved by JESUS.

YES....."HE was in the house today" and I know it, I felt HIM and I can not thank HIM enough for what HE did for me!!!

I am so blessed that I am dancing on the clouds on a rainy day!

"PENSIVE"

yes...pensive....that has been my state lately...i have many things going on in my life and around me...

many things that concern me....many things i am praying for....many things that require my full attention....things that i do not know how to handle....

my mind is in a constant state of "thinking"..my bible has all of the answers but some days honestly, i am too tired to pick it up and read it....

my friends in my life are far away....

jumbled, my mind is jumbled and i long to find an answer...hopefully, i am on my way....

i will continue to pray...continue to work..continue to hope....continue to love ...continue to
live...continue to trust and continue to have faith...until JESUS returns or HE calls me home....

even though i am "pensive" i have realized that i am so very blessed beyond my wildest dreams...

Well February came and went and now it is March and on March 1st we had a huge snow in Six Mile. It has been really , really cold and messy. Kahli was out of school today and a two-hour delay tomorrow, so she is excited about that. This snow storm made me miss The Husters so very much. We always used to spend storms together, whether rain or snow. We would always play games and watch movies and make dookie wads(really good chocolate oatmeal cookies).

February also brought a dance competition in Atlanta with Kahli. We had a good times with the others girls and their families. We especially enjoyed riding down with The Durhams. We had a lot of laughs and made a lot of memories. Kahli and I both love the Durham family very much! Thank you Durhams for letting us ride with you. We also got to room with Mrs. Jessica, which was a treat. She is an amazing young woman who knows that Jesus is her Lord and Saviour. The conversations that we had were awesome.

I also got a surprise trip to San Diego to see The Husters. I surprised Faith and Isaac and that was so very cool. I got to take Isaac to his first soccer practice and that was awesome. He was so very excited and so was I. Faith is growing up so fast and becoming such a wonderful young lady. Boy do I miss them. I got to go to church and hear Jimmy share the gospel and what a great church they have. They have an incredibly wonderful mix of all kinds of people. They are great and very warm and friendly also.

One day Michelle, Uncle Greg, Faith , Isaac and I drove to the mountains to see snow. Who was to know that after being home for two weeks I would have more than enough here. We had a nice ride and played in the snow. On the way back from the mountains we sang bible songs and it was just like old times. The only very important part that was missing was my precious Kahli.

Finally, I got to spend some much needed time with Michelle, my sister, my best friend, who I miss so very much , it is sometimes hard to explain. We had a wonderful day together after church where we drove around (the weather was cold and rainy) and talked and shared. Then she took me to an amazing restaurant which over looked the San Diego Harbor. It was beautiful and our time together was awesome. It was just not long enough I feel like we could have shared for hours. Having 3000 miles between you and your best friend is really tough.

After that we went back to the house and watched a movie. We acted silly and laughed with Jimmy, Courtney and the kids. Unfortunately I had to leave at 5:00am the next morning and sweet Courtney was nice emough to get up and drive me. Thank you Courtney.