Kahli Dance Recital 2009

Thank you to everyone that has prayed for Kahli over these past couple of weeks. She completed her dance recital today with the help of JESUS, who carried her through. To watch her dance you would never know that she has been so sick.

She was amazing, even if she is my daughter. She sparkles when she goes on stage and you can tell how much she enjoys what she is doing. She definitely entertains her audience.

I was very proud of Kahli tonight for many reasons. She did an incredible job dancing. She did an amazing job leading her little girls in their dances. She is a great encourager to the younger dancers. Her attitude remains positive throughout her storms and the best thing of all.....She went on stage prior to the show and led a prayer for all of the dancers that were on the stage.

She credits the great show to JESUS!

Ready, Willing and Able

For awhile now, I have been looking for a "small group", a "home group", a "bible study". I often hear people talk about how they had a great bible study at some one's home and how close their "home group" is.

I have been longing to be a part of something like that. I have been praying and searching for a couple of years. Every time, I hit a dead end road.

Is the LORD trying to tell me something? Is this dead end road really an open door for me to be doing something to glorify HIM instead of satisfy me?

I have talked with many people during these couple of years and every time I do, the conversation always turns to me. What is it that I am looking for? What kind of group do I want to be in? What do I want to achieve in this "group"?

Tonight, as I walked and prayed, I asked the LORD to reveal to me what HIS will was regarding this quandary that I have found myself in, and what did HE want me to do. Because honestly, i often get lost in me and what I want, forgetting that my main goal here on earth is to glorify HIM.

HE has revealed many things tonight through this prayer time . I feel renewed about something that I have longed for, for so long. I feel like my prayers have finally been answered. I now know how I can accomplish what I think HE wants me to do regarding "home group".

No, it is not what I was looking for. It is not going to be comfortable. It is not going to be easy. It is going to take some work. I know that I need to step out of my comfort zone in order to achieve this.

I am ready, willing and very able!

"please pray for kahli"

Please pray for Kahli. Over the past couple of weeks she has not felt well and now that her Spring Break is upon us, she has been down and out. She has suffered with fatigue and muscle cramping. She has had headaches and unable to sleep at night. Now she has come down with a horrible cold and is feeling miserable. Please pray that she is able to re cooperate quickly.

She is really looking forward to church this weekend, with all of the extra services and more chances to minister to the special needs children. However, in order for her to do this, she needs to be well.

This Easter Sunday will be a very special day for us both and it will be much better if she is up and able to go to church and be around fellow believers.

HE LIVES!!!!!

We are blessed!

HE is in control!

Over the past couple of weeks, I have encountered some events in my life, that have made me step back and look. I have gone through numerous feelings including, fear, anger, sorrow, anxiety and hurt.

In talking with a friend of mine the other day and she gave me this verse:

...for i know the plans i have for you, declares

the LORD, plans to prosper you and not

to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and

a future...

JEREMIAH 29:11

This verse has gotten me through the hard times. Once again, i am reassured that HE is in control therefore, I am surrendering myself to HIM!

Thank you JESUS for loving me!

"heard the gospel today"

today is sunday....one of my favorite days ot the week and today was no exception....today i had the honor and pleasure of going to covenant church to hear jimmy preach.....even though he did not have a voice this morning, the gospel was heard loud and clear....one of those messages that leave you thinking and praying and pondering thoughts all day long...

then tonight, i went to newspring and listened to clayton king give a message and heard more of the gospel preached loud and clear....and still i walk away thinking, praying and pondering thoughts...

on my way home as i was driving i heard a song that kind of sums up my day...

BE STILL, MY SOUL

be still, my soul: the LORD is on your side.

bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;

leave to your GOD to order and provdie;

in every change GOD faithful will remain.

be still, my soul: your best, your heavenly friend

through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

be still, my soul: your GOD will undertake

to guide the future, as in ages past.

your hope, your cofidence let nothing shake;

all now mysterious shall be bright at last.

be still, my soul: the waves and wind still know

the CHRIST who ruled them while HE dwelt below.

be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on

when we shall be forever with the LORD,

when disappointment, grief and fear are gone,

sorrow for forgot, love's purest joys restored.

be still, my soul: when change and tears are past,

all safe and blessed we shall meet at last.

yes, the LORD is with me always and forever...whatever i am going through HE is right beside of me. ..HE is in charge...HE will provide. HE knows the order of my steps each day...may HIS will be done...BE STILL and know that HE is GOD!!!!

overwhelmed and melancholy

overwhelmed and melancholy...

WHY...

my heart is full with the love of JESUS...

HE continues to amaze me each and every day the way HE loves me..unconditionally...

i have an absolutely incredible daughter...

i a member of newspring church where i am surrounded by fellow believers...

i have a great job...

each day i am allowing myself to grow in CHRIST as i surrender my past...

GOD has all the money in the world...

i have indoor plumbing...

my car is paid for...

i am a great listener...

i make really good stewed apples...

a rooster wakes me up every morning...

kahli loves JESUS and is growing and maturing in HIM every day...

i give good pedicures...

i have a "free" gym membership...

GOD will never leave me or forsake me...

i can read my bible anytime and anywhere without hiding my love for the LORD...

i have more than one bible...

i get to minister to toddlers every sunday at church while their parents go to worship...

there are so many more things that i can be thankful for...

there is HOPE and i can find it...

GOD rocked my world today...

Well, today was going to be just another day.

If you read my previous blog, my state of mind was "pensive". There has been so many things going on in and around my life lately that I have been consumed with them, or should I say that they have consumed me.

These past couple of weeks I have been praying long and hard for some answers from the LORD. I have been asking questions to things I thought HE would never answer.

Truthfully, I have been concerned about "me" and not anything or anybody else. Yes, just self-consumed. This is not something that I am proud of it is something that just happened.

Anyway, without saying too much, I will share how " GOD rocked my world" today.

I have had this person in my life that I have not been able to warm up to and it has really been bugging me horribly. I am the kind of person who gets along with just about everyone. I can find good things in unlovable people. It has never been an issue for me to "gee-ha" with anyone.

So yeah, well today through a conversation, that was totally unexpected (that is kinda how HE works) I found out something this person and i had in common. Through the commonality that was revealed, my whole entire heart was changed. I know where that person is , what is going on in their heart and how they feel.

You see, the LORD used a time in my life in which I was "in a very low place". During this time HE was developing character within me. With the knowledge I have been given through this experience, I am now able to use it to reveal HIS glory. That just blows my mind.

I just finished a book entitled "In a Pit with a Lion on a Snowy Day". One of the lines in this book read: "It's our past problems that prepare us for our future opportunities". So okay, what does that really mean? HE showed me today what it means. HE has lit a fire within me today that had been "snuffed out" for a while.

This all may seem a little confusing to you, but what is comes down to is, the LORD is so absolutely awesome! I have been so self-consumed and selfish over the past couple of weeks and HE showed me a couple of things today:

#1....it is NOT all about me but about HIM (which I have always known but sometimes life gets in the way and we forget)

#2...HE can use horrible events and turn them into HIS glory

#3...we never know what someone else is going through just by looking and not loving.

#4...that I have the honor and privilege of knowing, loving and being loved by JESUS.

YES....."HE was in the house today" and I know it, I felt HIM and I can not thank HIM enough for what HE did for me!!!

I am so blessed that I am dancing on the clouds on a rainy day!